Your Biggest Fan

I'm a real big fan of yours
But I'm quite the joke to you
But girl it wasn't a joke when you
Kissed me in your room and replied
"I love you too"

I'm a little bit insecure
From all of this mis-treatment
But see I'm workin it out
Workin it out you're so damn hard
When you learn

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I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why im
wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you

And I get to the point where
All I wanted for for us to make up
But its not that easy
Cause girl you move on so quickly
Keeping a boy like me at the edge of his seat

And I know everything you do
Is all about your perfect image
Well I hope this song
It helps your image

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I'm so over you now

I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why I'm
Wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you

And I was one who thought I was strong
Well you proved me wrong
Now I'm singing along every song
On the radio i dont wanna go
Come on baby tell me
Something I wanna know
Now wanna see what is on my mind
Because slack of motivation is
taking over my time and I'm sick of trying

All together now!

I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why I'm
Wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you

Sometimes I think that life is really funny. Sometimes I think it is unfair. Sometimes I think it sucks majorly.
This is one of those times in life that I feel like life is all of the above.
I really wish my friends would quit making me feel bad about leaving Texas. Since there is nothing I can do about it now and it is entirely too late, I just wish I was getting some space about the whole ordeal.

Leave me alone.

Where do we go in this life? What do we do? How are we to achieve the things we want, know how to get them, but don't have enough in us to reach it? I keep reaching, and reaching, and reaching, and even when I know my arm is about to fall off, I keep reaching. But I keep barely missing. It depresses me.
There is a lot of stuff going on right now. So much is stressing me out. People back in Texas make assumptions to things that they don't know the answers to, and I'm dealing with stuff here.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

I guess is what I am trying to say. If you're not here to be my friend, to let me be yours, to not talk about or judge me, or not try to blackmail me or lie to me, then I guess just leave me alone.

Todayyyy

I am going to get my tattoo. :)

Today.

Is a new day. I spent most of it sitting on the couch becuase my sunburn is hurting really bad. I watched Transformers again because my mom and sister were talking during most of it last night making it really hard for me to hear. Annoying. But I decided to watch it again. :) And now I am sitting in my room taking a break from cleaning and I am writing! and listening to a very awesome band called Muse. :) I heart Muse. :)
Anyway, I have been trying to figure out what to do with all of my stuff. its really annoying having all this stuff and no where to put it. haha. I need to find a dresser, bad. haha. Right now everything of mine is still in boxes. But oh well.
I think I am going to read the Twilight series...again. For the...5th time. I just haven't had time to go to B&N or anything lately. So I guess I will just re-read everything on my book shelf.
One of my dreams, is that one day I will have a huge library in my house. I love to read. I love books. I hope that I will get a good collection going. I really also like music too...I will probably have a bigger music library than a book library though. Kinda sad. lol
Well. I am going to go kill my cat. Write back later.

Boreddd.

It's 130 in the morning and I can't sleep, so I guess I will blog.
I went camping this weekend and got a really bad sunburn. Its been killing me lately. Ready for it to go away. Today seemed like a really bad day as it went on. It actually was a really bad day lol. Me and Daniel drove around, I got sick, we went to Wal Mart so that I could apply for a job, and then we rented Transformers and went to his house to watch it. Then mom called and said that she wanted to take me to dinner at J Parinos. So I went home and we chilled for a little while. Then we left going to J's. Dinner was good. Me and mom had a really good conversation. Then we came home and blah blah blah. not a very good night. But everything turned out GREAT in the end. haha. it was AWESOME. :)))
So yeah. I watched Glee Club for the first time today. lol. I had been wanting to see it and I am glad I finally got to. :) I think I need to go to bed because this post is weird and I need sleep. haha. Good night world.

Well...

I guess if you haven't already noticed, I moved back to Missouri. I guess I can just say that part of it was selfish, and part was needed. I'm living with my mom and my sister now, and it is going pretty well. I miss everyone back home, which is probs the hardest part of leaving. It reminded me of moving to Texas. Not being able to say goodbye to my friends. The people who came to see me were Shannon, Jamie, Natalie, Taylor, Haley, Brooke and Caitlan. I am so thankful for my friends. They care so much and would do anything for me. Taylor, Haley, Brooke and Caitlan made me this BA picture poster collage. It was probably the greatest thing a friend could give another. I will never forget the memories that were made, and I am looking forward to making more. Even though things are rough right now, as far as being content with being without my best friends, I know that I will be able to get over whatever obstacles come my way. I was really sad though, that I was not able to say goodbye to my friends from church. So if anyone reads this, I am looking forward to YOU EMAILING ME since I don't have any Email addresses. :) Love you. haha. But for the most part, everything is going good. I am going camping tonight, and floating tomorrow. :) cant wait.