Best Friends

Spring Break Day 3 and 4.

It's been a good spring break so far. Good is okay. I was looking for amazing, fun, friend filled Spring Break 09! But good is okay.
But the more I think about it, the better it was. I got things done, hung out with my uncle, and talked some with my aunt when she wasn't too busy. I mean, being the manager takes a lot out of a person. But the time at the office I spent with Po Diddy, was actually fun. In a weird sort of way. haha. I didn't talk to him much, filling out applications and taking in the luxury of fast internet. That was nice. But knowing that he wanted me there, and that it was fun for me to go to work with him was an odd realization. Most teenagers see their parents as annoying, and rule enforcers, I see mine as a blessing. I mean, really, who could be as Po Did?
But today... Today was fun. Jamie spent the night last night and we had tons of fun staying up late and watching movies. She had to go home at noon, so me and Hay hung out ALL DAY. The most fun I have had in a while. We just had friend time.
I guess the point of this blog is that today when me and Haley were hanging out, it was more than a usual day. When we hang out, it is completely centered around time, when we gotta be where, what were doing later, our plans for tonight. Even though I had to be at drivers ed at 630, It was nice not having a time limit. Getting to be out and just having fun together as girls, and doing girl stuff was fun. Friendship is something we take for granted sometimes. I know I have blown it with a few people that were really important in my life. But today, today was so fun its hard to think about what life would be like with out Haley. Ya know? I know this sounds weird and cliche, but its so true! What would we do without friends in our lives? Our accountability partners and person who knows everything about us. I guess my point is that I am glad I have a friend like Haley. Someone who doesn't judge, and who will kick me when I do the wrong thing. :) Love you.
Peace.

You'd think I'd have something to Blog about.

But I don't. I am sitting up at Uncle Mark's office just chillin. 'Bout to go make myself some hot chocolate.
Let me let you in to my world.
Yesterday, Uncle Mark and I hung out all day for my first day of break. We started off the day looking for jobs, with no luck. Its really hard to find one that needs you. Well eventually after looking for a while, I ended up back at Red Hot and Blue. They offered me my job back, now its just up to Mark and Debbie to give me the okay. So, yes. I found a job. The same one, but none the less, a job.
Then we went to Panera to eat lunch and I saw Emily and Carly Clifton. Sweet sweet.
Then we went home. and if I remember correctly, we did nothing, and then went to Walmart. Sweet day.
My spring break isn't going to be so fun...I have drivers ed every night. Oh joy.

You Found Me.

I found God, On the corner of 1st and Amistad.
Where the west, was all but one.
All alone, Smoking his last cigarette.
I said, "Where have you been?"
He said, "Ask anything."

Where were you? When everything was fallin' apart?
all my days, spent by the telephone. That never rang,
and all I needed was a call that never came.
to the corner of first and Amistad.

Lost and insecure. You found me, You found me.
Lying on the floor. Surrounded, surrounded,
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you,
Just a little late. You found me, You found me.
-The Fray-

I just wonder what it takes to get a person to this point. Isaac Slade said in an interview, "You Found Me" is a tough song for me. Its about the disappointment, the heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I’m still right in the thick of it. There’s some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest."

I just thought this was interesting. I was questioning this song. Its one of my favorites and being the nerd that I am, I googled the meaning behind this song. These are the results I got back. I guess I can say that sometimes I agree with him. But I try to remind myself that its not in my control. To keep believing and praying, and God will eventually answer. You can't expect an answer right away. But God will never give anyone more than they can handle. THAT is sometime I truly believe.

peace.

Life as it comes

I don't really know why I decided to delete my blog in the first place. Seems kinda like a dumb idea, because I really liked having one.
So, I start over.
I have been talking to this girl who was in my PALS class, and I love her to death. This morning, I went in for a Hawk Talk Meeting and she was talking to our teacher, Crying. Not understanding but knowing something was wrong, I debated walking over there; trying to get my assignment, instructions, and get out quickly. But as I approached the desk, the tone in her voice made me think back to the tones I have heard those 2 empty times in my life. The tone of Death. I listened, after asking if it was alright. She was sad, and broken. Telling me that her cousin committed suicide, I quickly told her of my experiences with my friend Seth. How I couldn't be there. She told me that she couldn't go to the funeral because it was too upsetting for her. I just recommended this book that Jamie gave me today called, DO HARD THINGS. Im not even sure myself what all it is about, but I am sure it might help. Whether she takes it or not is her decision. But I gave her my phone number and she has been talking to me. I think there was something telling me that I made the right decision. I'm glad I chose to walk into the room at that time, no matter how big of a hurry I was in. She needed someone in her life that cared, and someone who knew her situation. Sure, people can tell you, "I'm sorry. Everything will be okay." But that is not how you feel at the time, and definitely not what you want to hear. I hope she was okay with what I had to tell her, and got something out of it. Things happen and you can't escape them. But you can learn to accept it and move on, and greive in your own way. I hope she will be okay.